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Tuesday, 30 November 2010

UiTM Shah Alam..



Some of you might have known the fact that I went to UiTM Shah Alam for the UiTM Intervarsity Championship Debates or in short UiTM IV.. Basically I killed two birds with one stone.. Firstly, I was made aware of the debate community with its more complex being.. Secondly, I got to tour around in UiTM Shah Alam (hopefully my next stop after completing my foundations)..

So.. Let me explain the part about the debate community.. So prior to this debate competition.. I was only exposed to the DC cup held in UiTM Jengka.. This competition is joined by only two campuses.. Kuantan and Jengka.. So when we debated between each other.. It was apparent our difference in debating skills were very little.. So.. What happened in UiTM IV? Well.. It's like comparing and contrasting the difficulty in answering UPSR (DC) and SPM (IV).. So IV was joined by various institutions of higher learning not only limited to those in Malaysia.. The debaters comprised of many races and ethnics from various countries and backgrounds.. Some Malaysians.. Some were from Uganda.. A few from Iran.. Others, places where you could only begin to imagine the whereabouts of their countries.. Yes.. There were many foreigners.. When we were there.. We realized not only was our debating skills very mediocre.. But our English skills were nothing to be prided of.. Because the English skills possessed by the other participants were obviously on another level.. Some of us had a hard time understanding them.. Even though I didn't have that problem.. I had difficulty replying to their arguments.. I could have replied using simple words but due to their rich vocabulary.. I struggled to keep up with their colorful wordings.. The outcome was pure devastation.. Not only did I confuse the adjudicators at one point.. I confused myself.. It truly was an eye opener to me.. As if I woke up hearing a deep hoarse voice whispering into my ear saying, "You are nothing"..

Now.. The touring part.. Well basically.. I learned more about my law program.. In which only about 20% of students in the foundation program will be able to continue in the Bachelor of Legal Studies (BLS) degree after completing their foundations.. Even if you do finish your BLS.. The entry into the degree needed to become a lawyer or LLB is limited.. So basically.. As lecturers, seniors, and various other sources have stated.. UiTM law graduates are very marketable in a sense that they are more preferred over UIA law graduates due to the fact that to obtain a law degree from UiTM is more difficult in comparison to getting one from UIA.. This explains why pre-law intakes are high in UiTM because the outcome in the end is very low.. Promising highly skilled lawyers.. Okay.. Now UiTM Shah Alam.. The campus surprised me for its gargantuan size.. It was enormous.. The buildings.. The area covered.. They were all beyond my expectations.. Which is good actually.. Traveling in the Rapid KL buses which were frequent made the commute there very satisfactory..

Basically.. UiTM IV has made me understand that I am part of a bigger system.. In this bigger system there are students who perform better than me in certain fields.. This made me feel that I shouldn't walk on this earth thinking I am already good.. I should be thinking that I can be better.. I shouldn't look down on others because there are better students than me.. That I should try my best to overcome my weaknesses even if it means that I will have to swallow my pride and go hand in hand with my rivals.. That we should fight not against but with.. That the world is bigger than you think.. UiTM IV made me a better person..

P/S: Farah Atiqah.. I am holding on to your plan.. Hopefully it will come true.. :).. The truth is without you the atmosphere in the class has changed drastically in my view.. I often wonder how will I cope with your absence.. I shall follow your advice and I shall strive for excellence.. My spirits will be centered upon your plan.. Always.. I hope we do not lose contact.. You've always been there supporting me in semester one as I have been behind you as well.. But keep this in mind.. I'm still rooting for you in Kuantan.. Keep up the good work.. Hopefully everything goes as according to plan.. I am anticipating the day we both turn up as lawyers.. InsyaAllah..


Monday, 22 November 2010

The Beginning Of A New Chapter..


As I stepped out of the vehicle I could only begin to imagine the uncertainty of the future.. It was akin to predicting ones own death.. A mystery which shall encompass the individual till the time such an occurrence befalls upon us.. As I settled the registration of my stay in the campus.. I held the key given and said to myself, "This is the beginning of a new chapter".

 
XXXX
 


I stood there baffled by the condition of it.. Never before have I witnessed such a desolate room.. My parents advanced in.. In their eyes, a glimmer of hope shone.. "Our destiny is often shaped by our surroundings.. Fear not of this godforsaken room.. For we shall revamp it to a more habitable space for you..", said they.


Just as they foretold.. The room was soon purified of its former being.. The toilet now shimmering, spotless as can be.. The floors were sheathed with a layer of vinyl carpet.. The omitted shower head in the lavatory was replaced by one capable of delivering more than 5 types of water discharges..
 
After that.. They left.. Leaving me to pioneer my destiny..
 
 

Thursday, 18 November 2010

The Stories People Tell..

When an incident occurs between two people and should it be that only one person is to be at fault.. Most likely there will be two versions of the story told.. Both backing up themselves.. The method the individual depicts the incident is going to convince others that he or she is innocent.. This is a very mediocre occurrence.. To better illustrate what I am contemplating on.. Here is a brief fictional tale that in reality might just occur.. Pick one recount of events then contrast it to the other one..

Two students were quarreling.. In the end, they stopped speaking to each other.. They were the most popular best friends in the class and often were the center of attention.. When they were fighting the class split in two.. Both sides supporting their leader's (namely either one of the popular boys) story..

Popular Boy 1's Story

"We were both hitting on this beautiful girl.. We made a bet to see who could steal the girls heart.. As time went by.. I was apparently winning as I was very persuasive.. But, most probably out of jealously Popular Boy 2 told her that I already had a girlfriend.. Obviously.. I don't.. Why would I want to get another girlfriend if I already had one? It's not like you guys don't know I'm single all this while.."

Popular Boy 2's Story

"We were both hitting on this beautiful girl.. We made a bet to see who could steal the girls heart.. As time went by.. I was intrigued by a message that came out on Popular Boy 1's mobile phone.. Since the message popped out without me doing anything.. I couldn't help but notice another girls name.. I decided to check it out.. It turns out he already had a girlfriend.. By now I wasn't interested on the bet anymore.. All I cared was that the girl isn't cheated on.. So I told the girl we were fighting over what I found out.."

So.. Basically.. There are two sides of the story.. Which one is true? A little on both.. You see Popular Boy 1 had a girlfriend but he was thinking of breaking up with her the minute he got a new one.. Popular Boy 2 did read those messages but his mistake was to ask Popular Boy 2 about the matter.. So who is at fault here? You make the decision.. My point here is that you mustn't judge a person based on what you heard from other people.. Before you go on judging others.. Get to know the person first.. Because you never know the person unless you talked to the person personally.. So what you might have heard about me before.. There might be truths.. There might also be lies.. But keep in mind.. Have you really known me that well to judge me?

 

Wednesday, 17 November 2010

I'm So Sad, So Very, Very, Sad..

So I've been seeing this for awhile.. And I was bored.. So I'm doing this again.. :D.. If you guys read this.. You guys are tagged.. :P

Instructions:
1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Tag 25 friends.
5. Everyone tagged has to do the same thing.
6. Have Fun!

1) IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY?
Gettin' Jiggy Wit It - Will Smith ( HAHA.. Yeaa.. :D )

2) WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Complicated - Avril Lavigne ( Wow.. -.-" )

3) HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
This Is Me, We Can Go Anywhere - Demi Lovato / Jesse McCartney ( This is great!! :) )

4) WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Wannabe - Spice Girls (HAHA)

5) HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Aku Cinta Dia - Gita Gutawa ( Yeah.. An Indonesian Singer.. :P )

6) WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Come Clean (Chris Cox Remix) - Hilary Duff (I must.. LOL)

7)WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?
Ultimate Satisfaction - Ludacris ( To get the best of life.. XD )

8) WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Not Afraid - Eminem ( Really?? )

9) WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU? 
Bless The Beast And The Children - Carpenters ( :D.. This is a nice song )

10) WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?  
Ya Mustafa - Sami Yusuf ( :').. Wow.. )

11) WHAT IS 2 + 2?
Love The Way You Lie (feat. Rihanna) - Eminem ( I suck at maths.. That's what this means.. )

12) WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR EX BOY/GIRL/BEST FRIEND?   
Best In Me - Blue ( But we broke up?? O.o )

13) WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?   
You Belong With Me - Taylor Swift ( HAHA.. So true.. :P )

14) WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?  
Forever Young (feat. Mr Hudson) - Jay-Z ( :D.. I'm forever young!! )

15) WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?  
Chinese - Lily Allen ( WTH?? -.-")

16) WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?    
The Girl Is Mine 2008 (With Will.I.Am) - Michael Jackson ( Yeahh.. This girl is mine.. :P )

17) WHAT WILL YOU DO AT YOUR WEDDING?   
Enchanted - Taylor Swift ( :') )

18) WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?  
Memories Fade - Tears For Fears ( Memories fade but the scars still linger! )

19) WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST??  
Glory of Love - Peter Cetera ( Wow.. :D )

20) WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?  
Said I Loved You...But I Lied - Michael Bolton ( So true.. :'( )

21) WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?  
I'll Be Over You - Toto ( Okay.. What is this supposed to mean? -.-" )

22) WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?  
Endless Love (with Luther Vandross) - Mariah Carey ( HAHA.. Very precise.. :P )

23) WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?  
Trouble Is A Friend - Lenka ( What? O.o.. Why is this so accurate? I mean the friend.. )

24) WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?  
Dancing With Tears In My Eyes - Ke$ha ( That's bad.. -.-" )

25) WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?    
Make Love In This Club (feat. Young Jeezy) - Usher ( I've never been in a club before.. -.-" )

26) WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?  
Quitter - Carrie Underwood ( I laugh at quitters? O.o.. Intriguing.. )

27) WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?   
Teardrops On My Guitar (Acoustic Version) - Taylor Swift ( Which is obvious.. )

28) WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?    
Truly, Madly, Deeply - Cascada ( Yes!! :D )

29) WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?  
Papercut - Linkin Park ( Booyahh!! )

30) DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?    
Piano Concerto No. 21 In C Major - Richard Clayderman ( Hmmm.. )

31) IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?  
All These Things That I've Done - The Killers ( What did I do? )

32) WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?  
Me, You And My Medication - Boys Like Girls ( Wow.. )

33) WHAT WOULD YOU WANT TO SAY TO THE PERSON WHO TAGGED YOU?    
Heart Heart Heartbreak - Boys Like Girls ( ??? )

34) WHAT WILL YOU NAME THIS NOTE?  
I'm So Sad, So Very, Very, Sad - Crash and the Boys

Monday, 15 November 2010

Timetable..

Today.. As usual boredom was the main agenda.. So I thought to myself.. Maybe I should do something beneficial.. Something others can benefit from.. Then I remembered.. What about timetables? :).. Since the timetable wasn't constructed properly for us to view the time line of it all.. Maybe it was best if I created one that we could all rely on.. :D..

Then I got to work.. Copy paste.. Copy paste.. First from the portal to notepad.. Then from notepad to the word processor.. Then construct the table.. Followed by print screen.. Open paint.. Paste.. Dup.. Dup.. Dup.. And.. There.. ^^,..


So I made the timetable.. Yeah!! Which is very simple.. Since I thought there wasn't a good enough reason to make it nice, mind you.. The next step was to post it in Facebook.. Done.. :D..

So what's the big deal? Well.. What did I find in the next course of 5 hours? Every group made their own timetables too.. That didn't bother me.. What bothered me was that theirs were nice.. -.-".. Oh man.. It was like a competition.. "Who can create the nicest looking timetable for their group?".. That sounded like what the competition is.. I sent my entry too early.. HAHA..

Okay.. Back to the timetable.. :).. It's really nice to see that classes are now only up until 7PM in contrast to the previous 11PM.. -.-".. I can tell you.. those classes make you very sleepy.. Another thing that was nice was that there are no classes on Friday! :D.. Just like last semester..

So after creating the timetable.. I felt that I was nearing the end of the semester break.. That I was nearing university life again.. Lectures.. Study groups.. Assignments.. Studying.. Books.. No Facebook until 5PM.. Wow.. :).. Can't wait..

Owh.. Before I forget.. I'm getting pumped about UiTM IV too.. This debate competition is going to begin in the first week of lectures.. That's like seriously efficient for the debate team.. Hehehe.. Many thanks to Masturah Mohamad and Wan Nurhakimah Balqis for their good work in preparing all the necessary paperwork whilst I laze around at home.. HAHA..


Saturday, 13 November 2010

My MUET experience..

I was thinking of another song..
But, this one seems more clear cut of what I feel..

"You got me defenseless, intoxicated senseless
You cut me so deeply, I must confess

Baby I can't breath, when my arms are around you
Baby it kills me cause now that I found you
Your love is like a weapon girl, I can't live without you
You're so beautiful, it's tearing me apart
You murder my heart"


So basically.. I'm not sure if I did good or bad.. Because for one thing.. I couldn't differentiate between false and not stated.. -.-".. If its not stated.. Doesn't that mean that it's false? If it's false.. Usually.. Isn't it not stated? Then.. The writing.. Question 1, I did 199 words.. But here is the problem.. I didn't talk much about figure two.. How do I? Figure 1 was about the years 2003 to 2008.. Figure 2 was about 2008.. -.-".. So I only touched the surface of Figure two stating that there is a co-relation where the higher the this the higher the that.. Sounds like science.. A hypothesis? XD.. I was going to talk about the cumulative frequency.. But I was reaching the limit of 200.. So I finished early..

The next question had a minimum of 350 words..So I asked for another two or three papers for it.. I think I exceeded 1000.. -.-".. It was about arranged marriage? Err.. So I kept stating my opinion that in our society where the minds of individuals are more open and liberal minded, arranged marriages are almost unheard of.. I gave examples and such but.. Someone told me such practices are still common.. Well.. I don't know..


Friday, 12 November 2010

MUET Last Minute Tips..

As the title suggests.. I'm going to give some tips based on what I have read, heard, and seen.. :P.. I know.. I'm not that good.. But my principle has always been, teach others to teach yourself.. If I tell all of you what I know.. I'll be able to retain more information for later.. :D.. So here it goes according to the sequence of tomorrows tests..


Reading (800/3)

Okay this test component is the heaviest of all the other components.. About 40%.. So you should really work hard on this.. It takes about an hour and a half of your life.. :P.. There are 45 questions.. 29 being 3-option questions and the rest 4-option questions.. The fun part about this component is that the answers are multiple choice.. So you will see the answers when doing the test.. Now the problem will probably be identifying the right one.. :D.. There will be six passages taken from various sources..

In this component.. As I was told.. The most important thing is to UNDERLINE the important parts.. How do you do that? Okay.. First.. Read the passage swiftly as the passages often are very long.. Then read the questions.. Now you know what the questions want.. Read the passage again but this time.. Underline the parts you deem as important in regards of answering the questions.. Make sure you understand what the passage is about though.. Sometimes we read but we don't have the slightest clue as to what the passage intends to deliver to us.. Then you can answer the question confidently.. If this doesn't work then cross out the wrong answers one by one just like you did in secondary school.. :P

Writing (800/4)

This component will take you one and a half hour to finish.. It consists of two questions.. Whereby question one is interpretation of information which is based on specific stimuli provided and is usually needed to be at least 150 words and not more than 200 words.. Question two on the other hand is extended writing which is based on a given topic requiring the participant to write at least 350 words.. The questions may request the question to be answered in genres of a letter, report, essay, or an article.. This component makes up 30% of the test..

To me.. This is the hardest component.. The first question is usually presented with visuals in the form of graphs and data.. Now the first thing you need to check is what does the question request? A report? Article? Letter? Or an essay? Then you should scrutinize the the visual.. Look at the title.. Understand what they are all about.. See the scale/unit of measurement carefully.. Then look at the trends (increase/decrease).. Because later you will need to talk about these things.. Examine the relationships of the text and visuals.. Here are some words you can use to describe the graph:

remain steady
fluctuate
increase slightly
decrease dramatically
decrease slightly
increase rapidly
rise dramatically
plunge
drop suddenly
stay the same
go up a little
go down slightly

Often you will be forced to draw conclusions from the data.. Then after you write it all.. Check for errors..

Question two on the other hand is harder as it requires more of your thought on a a topic.. Highlighting what the question wants might help you answer the question better as you will be made understood your task to among things, recount an event, describe, discuss, argue, contrast, compare, explain or even analyze. After you know what the question demands.. You should take a minute or two propagating ideas.. Then you move on to the essay.. Basically you should divide the essay into three sections.. Introduction.. Body.. And conclusion.. As we were taught.. The thesis statement should be written in the introduction.. The body consists of the main ideas in which each paragraph is included a topic sentence with supporting details.. Other tips include using transition signals such as furthermore, finally, whereas, on the other hand and the like..

Listening (800/1)

The last time I checked.. There were three parts.. This paper will weigh you 15% of the 100% marks you will have to strive for.. So for this part.. It shouldn't be that hard.. Don't get frustrated if you think you did bad in the end.. Because you still have the reading and writing parts which weigh about 40% and 30% respectively.. Obviously the audio will be repeated twice.. I think we all remember that part though..
So the thing is.. You have to first know what you want to find out.. Before the audio is turned on.. If I am not mistaken.. They will give you about one minute to read the questions.. Now.. When they say this.. Do not skim the questions.. Read and understand what the questions wants.. This is so that you won't get caught up during the audio is played.. When you know what to look for.. It would probably be easy for you to spot the answer..

Usually the answers are in order but, you never know.. So pay attention to everything the audio says.. In regards to what the answer should look like.. You shouldn't worry too much because there are usually more than 5 answers to a question.. As long as the answer has the meaning that the question intends us to have.. For example, if the audio says "The cat was eating lasagna".. And the question was.. "What was the cat doing?".. The answer could be.. "Eating lasagna, Consuming lasagna, Take nourishment of lasagna, and even Devour lasagna".. So long as the answer has the same meaning needed to be conveyed.. Now do keep in mind of the NOT MORE THAN THREE WORDS.. They're not there just to be decorative in any sense..

There are variables though during the whole listening tests.. Such as how the sounds turn out.. Is it clear? Are you going to be in a comfortable listening area? Does it echo? Now this I can't help.. This part is up to where you take your test.. Whatever it is.. Pray to god it's going to be fine.. :)



So.. That's it.. :).. GOOD LUCK!!


Owh.. Sorry guys.. Speaking?

Speaking (800/2)


Here you are.. :)
http://muetmyway.blogspot.com/2011/03/my-muet-speaking-slides-ask-my.html

Thursday, 11 November 2010

It Blew My Mind!! :D



Seriously!! It did!! :D.. I don't know about you guys.. But every movie I watched always had a part that was boring.. Usually part where long dialogues were present.. But seriously.. This movie.. No boring parts at all.. The story was amazing.. It was fun!! It incorporated something I have not seen before.. It was like watching a movie which is a game.. Because it always had the game feeling in it..

Here's the synopsis from IMDB:

"Scott Pilgrim plays in a band which aspires to success. He dates Knives Chau, a high-school girl five years his junior, and he hasn't recovered from being dumped by his former girlfriend, now a success with her own band. When Scott falls for Ramona Flowers, he has trouble breaking up with Knives and tries to romance Ramona. As if juggling two women wasn't enough, Ramona comes with baggage: seven ex-lovers, with each of whom Scott must do battle to the death in order to win Ramona. Written by Jim Beaver"
 This movie is a must watch especially for the avid gamer.. There wasn't a moment that I didn't laugh.. It was all very ludicrous!! Some reviews of the film even said that the movie made people too much!! HAHA..

The whole idea of the movie.. Just made me happy.. I can't stop laughing and smiling.. :).. I'd love to tell you about the movie.. But you'd better watch it by yourself.. :D.. If you guys want to download it.. Here is the link.. Enjoy!!


Wednesday, 10 November 2010

Programming.. I Think.. -.-"..


Well.. This is true isn't it? :P.. But this isn't what this post is going to be about.. My post today is as the title suggests, about programming.. More specifically.. Facebook programming.. Well.. How did I start looking at such an idea? Here's the answer.. Have you ever wondered how some people make those via BlackBerry or via iPhone or via Nokia 3310 Facebook status updates without having the phones? (with exception to the Nokia 3310)
Well.. My curiosity wasn't intrigued enough to venture on the question.. Until..

*Drum roll please*

A new Facebook status came up via Lawrian Group X UiTM Kuantan.. This made me go.. Wow.. They made applications just to update their statuses? O.o.. Then my urge to study the FBML or Facebook Markup Language suddenly sparked..


:D.. Sorry.. It has always been a wish of mine to do this.. Hehe..

Okay.. So for about two to three hours.. I was studying on the methods of creating an application on Facebook.. The commands were simple enough but the language seemed to be very complex.. (Mind you, its been awhile since I programmed anything) So I thought to myself.. Is this really worth it? There are so many things needed to be done.. In the end I'm only going to update my status through it.. -.-".. So I gave up..

That's not the end obviously.. :P.. I had to ask this particular girl, who developed one of these applications for her group just out of curiosity .. I was amazed at how she mastered such a feat.. So I asked her.. How did she do it? At first she was laughing.. Then she told me something I never thought of before..

The application was made by her.. Yes.. But the programming was done by a third party program from another application in Facebook.. O.O.. You can do that? Yes.. You can.. So then she told me the steps to get to the application.. And in ten minutes.. I updated my Facebook status with an application I 'developed'.. HAHA..

The moral of the story? Sometimes we need to be humble and ask for directions instead of pretending to be a snob and figuring things out for ourselves.. I said sometimes.. :P.. Because at other times.. We might have learned more than we would if we asked..

Monday, 8 November 2010

When Life Gives You Lemons..


Life is a journey. There are obstacles here and there but we need to savour the time we have before it's all over..

To tell you the truth most of us take things for granted.. What we have now.. Might be something we won't be able to have forever..

We get angry because our internet connection is slow.. We go berserk if the food isn't delicious.. We curse for the world to know when our relationships don't work out.. We even get mad if we don't get to watch our favorite TV show because somebody is watching something else.. I could list down all the things we get mad for but it would be endless.. We think we have the worst life in the world..

Seriously?

That's why we have to think our life is bad? That others have a better life?

Maybe we should look at these people..



According to the United Nations about 25,000 people die every day of hunger or hunger-related causes. This is one person every three and a half seconds. One.. Two.. Three.. There someone dies of hunger.. And we complain about food not being delicious.. Stop complaining..


60% of Mumbai's more than 18 million inhabitants live in slums.. This means that 10.8 million people there live in a thickly populated, run-down, squalid part of a city, inhabited by poor people.. Remember Slumdog Millionaire? Yeah.. It's real..

So before you go mocking about how your life really is on Facebook.. Think about the 80% of the world population that don't even have internet access..




Saturday, 6 November 2010

Part 3

Considering the fact that the MUET examinations are to emanate soon.. I wish to ameliorate my English adroitness extending to a point in which its proficiency prevails my previous self.. With that conveyed, allow yours truly to depict a true story.. One in which I have not appropriately have done with.. A tale which haunted me till this very moment.. To better understand this chronicle I insinuate reading Part 1 and Part 2..

Part 3

Two weeks before encountering 'her'.. (If you haven't read part one please do so that you better understand the story)

Nothing soared through my mind other than the lethargy I was in the midst of.. The fact that I just woke up melancholy didn't seem to bother me.. I was more concerned on whether I was going to be capable of arising to another inconsequential day.. First order of business.. MySpace.. (Need I remind you this happened in 2009) So as usual, I went to the computer and started things up.. As the PC started up.. I gazed out through the window.. Gazing upon the blue skies.. Wondering what the day held waiting for me.. As I was approving friends a particular girl commented on my MySpace profile.. Being the gregarious bloke I was.. We continued the conversation through YM.. I thought my conference with her was mild.. Nothing sparked.. It was more on gibber.. Nothing to be bragged about.. But as I was about to find out soon she had seen things through another view.. This was going to act as the clincher in my near forthcoming.. The factor which will annihilate my jubilant future..

A month after.. (This is where part two occured.. And I got a girlfriend which has no relation whatsoever with the girl above)

I was deliriously happy.. My life was like a ship sailing through the calm seas.. I was savoring each moment of it.. It felt as if I was on cloud nine.. Never before have I felt such contentedness in my life.. Little did I know that my merriment will be evanescent.. For that night a message found its way into my handphone..
"Hi Arif, I miss you.. Why don't we catch up? :).."
My heart started pounding faster.. I was perplexed.. Why miss me now? Why miss me at all? I hesitantly answered with,
"I don't know where you are going with this but I should tell you I have a girlfriend now."
I thought to myself maybe she won't bother me anymore until she sent me this message,
"I can't believe you did this to me! I love you! How could you do this to me? I can't believe this. Why did you do this?"
The next few days were days full of torture and torment.. As she kept pestering me with messages saying she was sad and couldn't let me go.. I even stopped answering her messages just to make a point to her to stop.. But she didn't.. I told my best friend.. She came up with an ingenious proposition.. To impersonate my girlfriend and to enlighten her about the situation she was in.. At that very moment as I was audacious.. So I speculated that it would work.. I couldn't have been more misconstrued.. For its denouement was not one to be favored..

At first nothing was apparent yet.. So I assumed everything was back to normal.. The girl did not message and my girlfriend didn't say a word about anything.. Until, my girlfriend told me something that shivered me to my bones.. It turned out that she ended up foul-mouthing my actual girlfriend in MySpace.. My girlfriend couldn't stand it.. She was accused of so many treacheries.. I was astouded that she was still with me.. I had to cease such acts.. And fast.. How could I leave her crying hurt whilst it was my fault to begin with.. When she told me she was considering separating.. That is where I flipped.. I was outraged.. Where did the trail to the felon lead to? My best friend.. This was where it got out of hand..

I marched into the preparation class red-faced, fist-clenched, and determined.. The class not only felt my presence but the aura made them wonder.. What was to ensue? Why is it to emerge? Questions spurred in their minds like a pandemic out to annihilate the human race.. All these emotions could be remarked just by observing their faces.. As I walked by.. All I could think off was to admonish her of her malfeasance.. Then I finally got to her table..

You could imagine all the things I said that lead her to cry.. If you do.. Please do multiply it by at least three.. Because in the end.. Nobody won.. I lost my best friend and my girlfriend.. Who were at that time.. Among the most loved individuals I know of..

Thursday, 4 November 2010

Lonely..


I am unable to comprehend and fathom this..
 But I have this feeling that materialized abruptly.. An occurrence in which I did not anticipate.. :(.. It would have seem to have been but ages that such a perturbation had arisen.. A distress in regards of loneliness.. As if I am excluded from a circumstance that life offered others.. It's as if something has induced psychological symptoms including heightened feelings of depression and anxiety.. I begin to discern such emptiness such that I now comprehend feelings of helplessness.  I began to wander about the blogs and Facebook profiles of my ex's inquisitive of how they ended up.. A number of them are doing great.. As for the others, the opposite.. As I gaze upon their lives.. I now ponder whilst scrutinising my emotions.. How about me? Am I doing good? I perceive the word "good" as when one achieves a state in which a person is contempt or happy with their lives.. Now I repeat the same structure of the sentence with another question in mind.. Have I achieved a state in which I believe I am contempt or happy with my life? As I deduce all the variables present in my everyday life.. I find that most of the time I am.. But there are times where I feel a tad bit on the down side..

Tuesday, 2 November 2010

Semester 1 Results..

Truthfully..
I am thankful that I am not going to repeat any papers for the next semester..
But I wish I could have done better..


I now regret the days when the examinations were tomorrow and I couldn't have cared less..
I would have played The Sims 3 or Red Alert 3 without giving much thought to the fact that there is an exam scheduled on the next day..

But, as they say..

There is no use crying over spilt milk.. I accept this result as a reminder to do better next time.. :)..
These are my results:


3.67

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